I might crumble.
I gotta be honest. Between buying a new home in OKC, selling our home here in Texas, bringing Everett home from the NICU and doing it all while my husband is hard at work in Oklahoma. It’s a lot to handle and it’s getting harder for me to hold it all together. Sometimes I feel I might be crushed under the weight of it all. I’ve been struggling. I’ve found myself saying I can’t do this repeatedly and you know what? I can’t. I can’t do any of this in my own strength and I don’t have to.
• We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
2 Corinthians 4:8-9
It’s not my job to hold it all together. God has the weight of the world in the palm of his hands, it doesn’t belong on my shoulders! At first I felt ashamed and slightly embarrassed to share this publicly but ya know what?! I’m proud. I’m happy to boast in my weakness so that he may be seen STRONG! The Devil wants you to keep your struggle secret. Isolation is the key to being kept captive in your burden. Speak up. Share your struggle with someone you trust who can prayerfully support you through it. Stop believing you can’t overcome it because you can if you’ll unclench your fist and hand it over! Easier said then done, I know.
• The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Friends, the struggle is REAL but so is our GOD.